Now it's time to say good bye to all my classmate friiiieennndds. This week has been clean up Thanksgiving and decorate the house for Christmas. Found out good news that my sister will be home for her RR 4 days before x-mas and my nephews don't know it. Now I have to figure out how am I goign to sneak out the house and go pick her up from the airport. Christmas tree is up and too many presents to wrap. The gift I want this year is more less a wish. You can't buy it in stores, online or at the grocery store. I will wish it and keep wishing it until it happens.

Wow this went Fast

This went by fast!!!! I am excited about my paper being finished and as well being on a good topic. This week in my house is all about cooking. The list as grown a whole lot since the beginning of the month. I am going to be truly exhausted but I have my mother and father coming by and I already have my four nephews living with me this year while my sister is in Iraq. My nephews are the main reason why I am cooking real big, they have a bottomless pit for stomachs sheeeesh!!!! Honestly though, I love that they are here!!! My nephews are all in school A B honor roll and keep my very hyper son occupied that I say is a plus!! I am so thankful for family being around me while I am going through my illness, but they better not leave me to clean my kitchen after they put they beating on it. Love you mom and dad just playing. I think I will continue this blog even after class ends everyone can keep following to let you know the outcome of my battle with this ole cancer. Everyone good luck in your travels in life towards your goals.

Fun and Food was the last thing

This week has been a very long and tiring week. The word food or the smell of food did not get along with me this week. So nothing but potatoe soup for me. Don't everyone throw a party lol. I also had to braid my sons hair this week. That is like pulling an alligators teeth with no weapons.I had to go from this long thick hair to braids because putting it in a pony tail everyone mistakens him for a little girl. So besides my finger and wrist hurt. I had to chase him down he even ran out the back door. It was funny but really all you have on is a t-shirt and batman underwear on son. How far did you think your were going to get in a fenced in back yard. But here is a picture of before and after of my sons hair.

Is there anything that you have found shocking or intriguing in the process of your research.

My research has been an eye opener. I am researching Identifying and Treating Adolescent Depression. I feel shocked and amazed that teenagers are masking the signs that you would look for if they are depressed. We as parents must pay attention to our kids mood swings. Sometimes when we think its just attitude or as my mother would say "smelling yourself" it might mean something is actually wrong. Analyzed what has changed in their lives that might of had an impact of them. I feel its alright to be a little nosey, I call it being good parenting. I researched also the medications that are being prescribed to these teenagers and one of the precautions that was listed was having suicidal thoughts. Do we really want them to be on these drugs if they are already depressed and the medication can heighten the thoughts of suicide? Do your research before opting to medication. Talk therapy is the best initial start.

Looking Forward

I am looking forward to this week halloween party is going to be hilarious. My health I have been feeling pretty good this week and that makes me feel motivated. Kids say the darnest things and my son keeps me laughing about things he says. He said that I will feel better if I take a shower and wash it all away. Im smiling from ear to ear and wish it were true but makes me happy that he wants mommy to feel better.

Long Week

This week has been full of a lot of shopping for Halloween costumes for my son and I. He is going to be Iron Man and I am going to be a nurse with long red hair and blood coming from my mouth with some fangs. My sons father is throwing a Halloween party and I am in charge of decorations. I am excited and praying that I will be well enough to attend this throw down. Everyone thank you for all the warm embraces and words of encouragement that I have received and I deeply appreciate all your words. My son, school and you all give me the motivation I need. Thank you I will be a survivor.

Another Week

I am exhausted. Not sure How I am typing right now. I have also grown to love wigs now. I purchased 4 wigs this week, even though I use to be the one to say I would not get a wig. I have short one, long, medium length and something with color. My little man doesnt like them he said he likes rubbing my head. Hilarious, he does keep me smiling and laughing even if it takes about half of my energy away cracking up at him. I am also trying to make an important step on when to take sick leave? Something for me to ponder on this week.

Today is one of them days

Well I had chemo therapy yesterday and this time it hit me harder than the first two sessions.The good part was that my son CJ was rubbing my head telling me that I will feel better. Just by him saying that gives me the strength to keep pushing. I just never thought I would be going through this but I have a strong support system at home. School work so far I am able to keep up I am praying that i keep my motivation and not let this illness beat me. Thank you to everyone that wished me a happy birthday last week. I actually enjoyed myself and had fun with friends and family.

9/29/1978

Today is my birthday and so far its ok!!! Im blessed to see another year and I am blessed to be here to raise my grown acting three year old. I am fighting a battle that I will win with cancer. My grandmother alwaya told me "Do not let anything defeat you". I am happy even though I have to go to class on my Bday I will enjoy this day and appreciate it.

Hello CM229-05 Class

Hello My name is Marlene Hale. This is my blog for my CM229-05 class. My post will consist of my day to day life as a single mother battling ovarian cancer and being a full time student. I hope to make you laugh!!

Chemo is draining me

It hurts to type ..its tiring just sitting up...My son has soooo much energy that getting this treatment I can't keep up. I am trying not to quit and let this beat me. I have god, family and great friends. i think if i tell them i want to quit i will disappoint them. Im going to hang in there though a little while longer hey never know it might get better. Live Love Life

I feel like a football player

I am trying to tackle school, work a 3yr old and a cyst that has turned cancerous. Im tryin to figure out how I am going to do this. So I was told to tackle everything like a linebacker. I am a carolina panthers fan so I guess I will put on my Steve Smith jersey and make it happen. wish me luck

Long week

This week as been a very trying week. I have a pilonidal cyst, which to me is the most painful thing to have. I sat in the emrgency room for 6hrs last week which was ridiculus. They kept me for 4 days that was so hard for me being away from my son and my computer. Now I am sitting on a doughnut and have to get a dressing change every 3 to 4 hours and the dressing change is so hurtful that it literally takes away all my energy. So now I love to stand up lol. so this will be a long week for me hopefully all heals and I have no worries when I go to my follow up.

Mondays

My Mondays are catching up with me. Trying to entertain my 3 yr old takes a alot out of me. Pool, park, and video games is what my weekends consist of now a days. He sleeps better than me. Homework is getting better, just have to make CJ understand that mommy needs a little me time.

I am not sure what I am doing wrong with this blog I have re done it 3 times already what am i doing wrong ...Signed fustrated in fayetteville

Just Another Day

I sitting here researching my topic for one of my research papers for school with a 3 year old on my lap. As I am reading through my research for my topic " Should the law require welfare recipients to be drug tested for drugs use as a condition of recipients benefits?" I can't believe some of the examples of mothers out there that would sell food stamps for drugs. You are taking food out of your kids mouth to feed your own addiction. Wow I am so amazed that they actually call themselves mothers or a parent at that.